went back to the doctor today....

yea my shoulder was messed up 18 yrs ago. the bone was pushed up into my neck and could not move my neck. doct. fixed it and the next day or two after the surgery i was out driven a stick shift..hahaha now im paying out my ***...ive never been able to lift my arm over my shoulder but could pick it up with my other hand...anyway 18 yrs later got up 1 morn. and could not lift it at all went to family doct. and got a cordon(i think thats right) shot in my shoulder and was told this will get you back going ..yea right lift there and still could not get it up.called a spots doct. and went got another shot only suppose to get 1 every 3 mths what they told me i had 2 in a mth. no help. time for surgery. well 12/7/09 had surgery and 1 of the bolts had came out my rotator cuff was split so he drilled holes to make it bleed so it may go back tog. and my muscle was part had to pull it and stiche it back tog. and shaved the bone spers and some of the art. thats init..the art. in it is about the size of a 1 1/4 socket..so nxt step if this doesnt get me right is to replace the whole shoulder.... anyway my doct. is trying to help with the ins. comp (united health care) and find out why they want pay....they take all your payments and give you nothing or fuss when you need some help...i just dont understand...but like i said im trying to do other stuff and get my mind off of this sh-t you know...its kinda hard cause it put so much press. on my wife with the bills and stuff and it just drive a wedge between us..so you fight with ins. and the wife..not to mention the sitting home every day doing nothing when your use to working anywhere from 8 to 16 hrs a day most of the time..... i dont sleep much even with the pain med. and the sleep meds. i get about 3 hrs a day most of the time then ill get 1 good night and start the process over 3hrs here and there...but thanks for all the kind words and help guys sometime you just need to talk......