Hey guys...it's been awhile.

Hi John , rant away , I know where you are coming from , lost the use of my left arm 30 years ago and cysts in my spine took away the use of my legs 4 years ago , been wheel chair bound since . Though I can walk short distances .
Don't give up , you never know what is around the corner , 5 neurosurgeons told me nothing could be done with the cysts in my spine , but I found one that was willing to do the operation and restored some use of my legs , he freaked once he opened me up , but was able to do some good . I can walk a short distance , that is a big improvement
They put me on anti depressants , but I found they made me gain pounds and was suicidal on them , i stopped taking them and that was hard , withdrawal from them was bad . All I can say is find the right solution for you , don't give up , takes a while .
Hope things improve for you , stay strong .