Discouraged

This more of a rant than anything, I have been into the car hobby longer than I can remember. For the longest time I have wanted a car I could be proud of and have tried to work towards that goal. So here I sit many years later and I have a car, one I love dearly, and have owned over ten years, but sadly I have found myself also financially strapped over those years. My lack of money, whether though my own bad decision or just life, I have never had enough to truly do my car justice. I have tried to maintain the car to keep it on the road and even that has been hard to do. I went to a Nostalgia Drags close to where I live and the old feelings of never having a car that I can be proud of reared its ugly head. I sat in the stands and watched as people took their souped up jalopies down the 1320, and thought god I would love to have enough power to run down the strip and be proud of the numbers I would pull down. Life unfortunately has never been a lucky proposition for me. My poor car sits in the garage with engine problems, which I will solve, an engine that at best puts out 200 hp. I just can never seem to find the money to do all the things I want to do for the car, hell the quarter panel and the front fender have been f**ked up for going on 6 years, one cause I don't have the skills to fix it myself and two I don't have the money to get someone to fix it. I even have a quarter panel for the car, just no cash to fix it, then there is the rear axle, I have an axle, again no money to get it cut down and built. I just want to have a car that is built with nice parts not junk that I have had to make work, because that’s what I can afford at the time. So one day, just one day I would like to roll out in my car and have people say that is bad ***, instead of are you ever going to fix/finish or people point at my car and laugh at it. I know that the world is a different place, from when I was a kid and you have to work to get anything in this ol world. I am just tired and worn out from trying to get ahead and fulfill my dream. I guess I will get the ol girl up and running the best I can and ride off into the sunset……..rant over….