Discouraged

well this is one of them post's..... I'm scared to say what's on my mind...so against my better judgement (not that I have one) I'm gonna venture out onto the plank......quit feelin sorry for yourself! git yur *** up off the couch or the computer and git out in the world of makin doo! (did i just say that?) oh yea it was me (yall didn't see that did ya?) Oh ****...... well now im in the doo-doo so might as well keep diggin myself in a lil' further....... I scrap aluminum cans (leftover from drinkin beer).......I am a garbage picker......Yepp, no pride here :).....I don't run to the parts store till I completely dissasemble a non functional part and figure out how it works and reassemble it somehow.....If i cant fix it somehow...and I mean with anything I can find in the shop ( did I say anything?) I repaired a steering column for a 69 mustang....the one that flips out to the side when you open the door with a piece of a beercar to make the contacts touch the spot to make it work every time!!!!! to this day it works perfectly......look at how things are made and why and learn how to repair them ....wtf? what would yo do if there was no parts store and your wipers wouldn't park? or your backup lights wouldnt light up? I bought a late model oval track Dodge avenger (it was a deal) I paid an extra 1000$ to get the blown up 360 just to dissect it.... I saw it win several races before it blew up.......He was only spinnin it 8000 rpm's....yep he made the chevy boy's whine like baby's...So? you can expect that from a Mopar...the bolt he put in the end of the camshaft was not grade 8 and it broke...18,000$ down the drain....not sure how to put this all into words but here goes nuthin ( like it or lump it) ya gotta start fixin stuff so git too it till its the best you can muster. Money don't make winning cars...sheer determination and grit does....git off the couch and show us yur grit!!!!
P.S. You can do this :)
This more of a rant than anything, I have been into the car hobby longer than I can remember. For the longest time I have wanted a car I could be proud of and have tried to work towards that goal. So here I sit many years later and I have a car, one I love dearly, and have owned over ten years, but sadly I have found myself also financially strapped over those years. My lack of money, whether though my own bad decision or just life, I have never had enough to truly do my car justice. I have tried to maintain the car to keep it on the road and even that has been hard to do. I went to a Nostalgia Drags close to where I live and the old feelings of never having a car that I can be proud of reared its ugly head. I sat in the stands and watched as people took their souped up jalopies down the 1320, and thought god I would love to have enough power to run down the strip and be proud of the numbers I would pull down. Life unfortunately has never been a lucky proposition for me. My poor car sits in the garage with engine problems, which I will solve, an engine that at best puts out 200 hp. I just can never seem to find the money to do all the things I want to do for the car, hell the quarter panel and the front fender have been f**ked up for going on 6 years, one cause I don't have the skills to fix it myself and two I don't have the money to get someone to fix it. I even have a quarter panel for the car, just no cash to fix it, then there is the rear axle, I have an axle, again no money to get it cut down and built. I just want to have a car that is built with nice parts not junk that I have had to make work, because that’s what I can afford at the time. So one day, just one day I would like to roll out in my car and have people say that is bad ***, instead of are you ever going to fix/finish or people point at my car and laugh at it. I know that the world is a different place, from when I was a kid and you have to work to get anything in this ol world. I am just tired and worn out from trying to get ahead and fulfill my dream. I guess I will get the ol girl up and running the best I can and ride off into the sunset……..rant over….