Thanks everyone. Alot. What everyone said is true, I have to keep my head up. I just got back from the calling hours, and seeing everyone made me think alot. Talking to her mom and brother (my aunt and brother) gave me some motivation to stay positive. My fiance also has helped, having lost her 27 year old brother to leukemia 2 years ago. And you guys helped too. I guess its good to vent your worries sometimes, I'm not too good at that. I'm always the one helping and listening to everyone around me.
On a different, but similar, note, I had my dr checkup today. Turns out because of some blood being where there shouldn't be, I have to get a cat scan saturday. He said it could possibly be something like kidney or bladder cancer. Wtf? So, I told him that just today I was going to my cousins calling hours that passed away from cancer. He called in the cat scan personally to make sure I could get it asap. I hope its something stupid.
