Goodbye, Sarah

Thank you all, for the prayers and condolences.

I can take comfort that Sarah is now dancing with Katie, surrounded by the love of God, completely free of the worries and the pain of this world. Sarah's (and my) belief in Christ as Savior was absolute.

I'll share a little story that I shared at her memorial service.

As she was laying there in the coma the hospital set me up with the Hope Lodge, a free hotel set up by the American Cancer Society. I would go there to take breaks and get some naps in a bed, but I spent most of the time around the hospital, sleeping in the chair in her room.

One night I had a dream of being trapped in a building. Every time I came to a door, it was locked. If I walked away and decided to try the door again, the door would be gone. There were people in the building, but I couldn't interact with them, couldn't ask them the way out. This dream woke me up a couple of times and each time I fell back into the dream, back into the building, and still couldn't find my way out.

When I got back to Sarah's room I asked her if that's what it felt like for her. Was she telling me that being locked in her mind felt like being trapped in a building. I told her to keep looking for the door and I'd be there waiting for her.

She found the door, folks, but it wasn't me who was waiting.

As I said to others throughout the process, ours is the grief, her's is the Glory.

I also said, that when it came time, and if she told me that it was time to let her go, I'd do what was right by my wife, and leave the broken hearted behind me, even if that included me. It does.

Sarah wasn't afraid of death. She was afraid of living a life she couldn't live. My sister shared a story with me of Sarah as they sat together while I was up at the shop fixing some of the things on Sarah's Hyundai to make sure it was going to be safe and comfortable for the round trips to and from the hospital. Essentially, what Sarah had to say was that she was prepared to die. Yet, being full of hope, she got on the OR table anyway.

I drew so much of strength from Sarah, but that tells you exactly how strong she was in life.


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