Lost my lil' bubba 12/12/12

Sorry for your loss; don't be too hard on yourself--cats are sometimes too mysterious for us to figure out what is going on with them. I was never a "cat person" until I got married at the ripe old age of 51, and became a "cat owner by marriage". Red, our "inside cat", is a mostly healthy 15-pounder who also has a thyroid problem. We have been giving him a pill twice a day to control his thyrod issues; if you have any experience with giving a cat a pill, you will appreciate how that works! Hang in there and remember the joy that your friend gave you!