Depression

First off it really sucks. I suffer from Depression and have for awhile now. The main thing that buggs me the most..........Is not knowing why. I have a great wife, great kids, a good job. Nice house And a retreat..Trailer. Honestly nothing to get me down. BUT:banghead: Theres something. I dont know how, when or why it started. That bugs me the most. If i did i could try and change it but i cant because i dont know. 75mg of effexor is what i take. **** i still have bad days but i wounder what they would be like if i wasnt on Meds. Talking about it and saying you are is a great step bud.I didnt want to admitt it for along time.I have great support and as you can see you have it here too. Meds do help and dont think any less of yourself if you need them. My friend thats why we have em. Right now im down more because of my dam back and cant do anything. All i say to myself is..I can only do what i can do. If theres anyone bringing you down......NEXT. Say BYE BYE. Lifes to short and YOU ARE WAY TO IMPORTANT to be down all the time. Were here for you and im only a PM away.

I hate to say I may have to find a doctor and go back on meds. The reason I am trying to avoid it I take too many pills now as it is and there are people that take many more pills than I do. Like you I don't know what caused mine 10 years ago.