I have been through all of the bi-polar meds myself , and I agree 100% that meds are not the answer , they are more of a problem . I have ptsd , even though it wasn't even around in terms in 1986 . I stopped using drugs in 1988 , stopped drinking in 1995 , changed my job , changed my life , and I am a much better person now because of it . I still have occasions where I am suffering mentally , but I have found that building model cars , or drawing cars , women , or just doodling with a pencil , it puts my mind at ease and helps me focus on the task at hand . All I have to find is something constructive to focus on and I am good to go for awhile until the anxiety passes . Hop this helps even a little bit .