So, she's moving to Tennesse in a year with one of her best friends. She could be moved by the end of the month or even in 2 weeks, but she's taking a year to get all of her friends used to the fact that she's going to be living in Tennesse next March. And apparently, had we stayed together for maybe 2 weeks more it would have kept her from leaving, again, for even longer as there's now another attachment point for her, whereas right now there is none as much as it hurts me to say it. With all of her issues and the fact that she really had a bad time in HS. In short, just all sorts of mental bs that most likely would have overwhelmed me after a while. It really sucks for me as I actually tried, harder than many things that I've tried at before to make this work. As my best friend said though, at least now that I've been in one relationship, I know I have the some of the qualities that women want. :D It told her, you know this is the part where I say if I knew we had a chance to try it again I'd try, but I can't. I won't. I think that's what hurt the most and drove the final nail in the coffin. I mean quite honestly, I don't think she'll want to go again as it'll just ruin all her plans, and I'm not exactly ready to go running up to her saying stop. It just really sucks and at this point I'm just numb. Yes, it was my first relationship and yes, it was only a month, but God, I've never hurt like this before, even after getting rejected in the past.
