Never figured I'd be driving over to a girl's house so she could dump me

I will share this it may make ya feel alittle better . I lost my 1st love to a car crash . We was broke up at the time . She still loved me and i her but we was better off friends(truned into a brother sister kind of thing ) . I would still talk to her alot when i got with my Gf i have now i called her and told her she was happy for me and said we should all get togather and what not that was the last thing i ever heard from her , Drove by her house no one was there called her cell no one picked up i thought she was mad at me for over a year intell i got hold of her mom and she told me she had passed away . Its better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all . Do i wish that i never got with her so it would not hurt . No i dont . It will pass in time man .