I believe it's time to dissapear for awhile

Oklacarcollecto said

Keep in mind there is a lot of support for members here. There will be plenty of people to help you work through quitting smoking and the garbage that comes with it. What ever you do I will be praying for you.

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I do appreciate the support but I've chosen to distance myself so as not to destroy relationships by saying horrible things to people that I really don't mean. I have a big enough problem with that because of my mood swings, nicotene withdrawal will only fuel that fire I'm sure.

As is with my mood getting worse, I almost got into a fight on Facebook with girlfriend's mom that I had to end as quickly and diplomatically as possible only to move on by feeding my girlfriend the material to do damage control if she's confronted about it. I haven't even started quitting yet! Why did it happen? My mood swings make me an ***.

In the end though, my family and friends will be keeping a close eye on my because they are aware of the effects that chemical imbalances wreaked upon my mind last time I tried to quit. Somehow quitting smoking made me suicidal.

A word to those who don't already know, do not combine mental/phsycological/mood disorders with chemical dependancies. EVER!!!