Hard to keep going sometimes

Update this week:
Horrible week for flareup, I went into work late on Tuesday. I almost went to the Er, the pain was unbearable. I took enough med to be able to go in half a day, but still got a HUGE attitude from my fiancé, and a nice little argument. All because she doesn't want me to complain if I am broke. Since I have control over my colitis, I guess. Grrr. Next 2 days were spent not so happily.
Once I get to work, my boss proceeds to voice his opinion about my "tummy ache", which almost led to a huge loss of temper. Instead, I asked if he wanted to try to be at least somewhat intelligent and and I would explain, once again, what is wrong with me. He said no. So, I stepped into his office, slammed the door shut, and said too f---in bad. I proceeded to tell him in detail everything I know about my disorder. To my surprise, he listened, and sounded somewhat apologetic. That was Tuesday.
Well, yesterday was my birthday, and I actually felt a little better. The place is going out of business, and I have been hoping for a layoff. Well, talk about a birthday present...I got laid off! I was the last one called in, and they kept just a skeleton crew. I still get my profit sharing, etc. I am happy about it, because I can finally either go to school, or start the trek towards disability. I think I am just glad to have what feels like a new beginning.