Tough times

I can say this, you need this car in your life, we all need to have a dream of some kind in our life and you have something you can never replace Your first car.. Keep the dream alive even if it has to wait till next year.. the money can be replaced, and it will be gone before you know it. JMO .. Yes I regret selling my first real car, 70 Barracuda because it was the car I was driving when my children was born (know 31 and 33) and it can never be replaced
Life changes every time you turn around, don't let this be something I am sure you will regret .. JMO and hope a spark of hope hits you before it is gone forever.