Has,nt sunk in yet

In my opinion, loyalty to the company you work for these days tends to be disregarded by most employers. They demand yours but owe you nothing for it. I also feel employers would rather chance the cheaper young and inexperienced than senior folks that actually know what they are doing.

Hang on and try to keep a positive attitude. As several have stated, get that shingle up and work for you.
And don't feel bad about unemployment. I'm sure you deserve it after 33 years of service.
Best wishes to you and yours!