No need to feel bad anyways. Every one of us is unique. As such, you prob dont like crowds of people. I dont care for large crowds myself. Actually prefer to tinker in my shop by myself with the radio blasting out my fav tunes from the 60s thru the 80s. I have always been something of a loner. I bet dealing with bullshit thru my school days has cemented that. It has also cemented a fierce sense of independence, and cynicism.