Losing a Loved One
I understand what you went through as I am going through this now. I have no one who I can surround myself with. I am like a man stranded on an island. Last Friday night I sat here alone and drank myself till I passed out. I was very tempted to get all Dee's medicines and swallow ALL the pills. I really feel like there is no reason for me to live. I literally live a life of torture now, constantly alone, empty and lost.
I have people with helpful "words", but that is no substitute for lending a hand with
the immense amount of work I must accomplish before Aug 16 to be out of my house.
I started a new job, today is the 4th day, and I'm working 10 hours, plus avg 2 hours each way to go 30 miles, with O'Hare airport smack dab in the middle.
After a 14 hour day, I am too exhausted to do much packing.
I have not figured out how I am paying for storage yet, etc.
Alcohol is a waster of time, but a mildly useful crutch.
Don't let it lie to you.
The answer is only a short way down the bottle, not at the bottom.
Alcohol, like other drugs, only wants more.
Please do not listen to the lies it tells.