Thanks guys. Most people express grief when they lose a relative. It's understandable to feel a loss. Whatever I'm feeling cannot be as extreme as those that knew her better. I was always the guy that received birthday cards and Christmas cards but never sent any. At funerals others always seemed to know what to say while I was unable. I truly feel blessed to have had as many nice people in my life as I have and hope that they know I share their pain.
A few months from now I will find it hard to remember details about the circumstances surrounding Paulette's death. I won't remember the funeral. I'm not sure if it's a curse or a blessing, but it's the way my brain works. I've been this way all my life. I don't remember most of the details from when my mom or dad passed away. The sadness and sense of loss remain - but little else.
Working in the garage is what I do. It's the place I go. It's become part of who I am. I've been back at the projects but that doesn't mean the events of this past week haven't affected me. Until time washes them from my memory I'll still have them weighing heavily.
