Pain meds....

I always get frustrated when folks tell me to switch Doctors. Have went to 2 different facilities . Neither one will prescribe pain meds, at least not to someone like myself that has been battling mental health troubles for years. That is why I have to sign a pain contract. Spoke with the one potential new doc. She told me that I will need to go see a pain management "specialist". That they will not prescribe either Oxy to me right away. I will have to go into a detox center and "get clean". Then start all over....Being bi-polar...and already having suicidal thoughts on a very regular basis simply can't see this happening...