TIRED

Spent close to 20 years in the USPS. All of it doing one repetitive motion jobs after another. Last 6 years there is hit the Social Security income cap...over $100k a year. One of those years I had the highest income of any craft employee in the facility. Worked at a check printer for 6 or so years prior to that. Had lead poisoning 9 times. Hung 70 pound lead pigs with my left arm.
Forced out of the USPS, labeled as a "hazard to self and others". All the repetitive motion tore me uposted physically. Struggling with retirement, mentally. Feels like I no longer have a purpose. Often look at the bottle of Xanax...or the bottles of Oxy....or the business end of a hand gun...as a solution...