Stop in for a cup of coffee

Ive also beat the crap out of my body in ways probably only a small percentage of folks in America do. Carrying 150 pounds of gear plus my own body weight for dozens of miles for really no point surely didn't help. Especially running with that much weight. Throw in the other stuff and boom, instant knee issues for life
Time to stop that crap then...and find a way to live with what you have left.

I played football for 8 years as an offensive and defensive lineman. That’s what destroyed my knees...and shoulders...and back...and spine...