You kindof sound like my brother.He'll be 62 in January.
He's had 3 wives and about 10 relationships, and his pecker has been practically around the world. He's a wizard now, old, wrinkly,sick,used up,always broke,father to two girls, and 4 years younger than am I.
Ones and zeros for him looked like 5s or less to me. To his credit tho,he's been shacked up with a nice girl now for something like a dozen years. Maybe a bit more.
What a life