Ever just get tired?

Yeah... When I was 23 I was a deputy and had someone pulled over on the highway. A sleeper hit the back of my cruiser, that his me and 5 surgeries later, nothing but pain. I'm 64 now and have learned to live with it. But goddamn it wears you out. Saps your energy and causes depression that it very hard to deal with. I have those thoughts every now and again but get through most days with some sort of self satisfaction. Each day is struggle and a win. Remember, this thing you are going through is cyclical. The wave will crest. Be easy on yourself.