I screwed up!! Advice please?

Well, I feel your pain. I really do. I just went through the same thing, not as bad as yours tho. Mine is in the body shop as we speak getting rust repair and paint done.

The way I see it, you have 2 choices if you're not willing to pursue matters.
1) Roll up your sleeves and learn how to weld, or,
2) Throw a road flare into it and roast some
water chestnuts.

You sound like a talented guy, I think you got this. Get over the disappointment and make it yours. :)