Me too. I used to have a really short fuse. Now i just dont give a crap about most things. Like people that think their car trouble is my problem. I look at it as a source if income.
My problem is that I have Pheochromocytoma. That means my body produces excess adrenaline far beyond what is normal. When the anger starts, the adrenaline flows and it is very hard to stop.
It also means I get to the point of punching through doors and walls when I am angry without realizing it. When I was 20 years old, my mother watched in horror as I destroyed the front door of our house while trying to get away from her after she pissed me off. I turned the knob and the door didn’t open...so I just went through it, leaving it in splinters strewn across the front yard.
It is kinda is like a real life Hulk syndrome that I actually have to take drugs 3 times a day to control.
I even once broke a man’s skull 30 years ago from his left eye to his right upper jaw by slamming his face into a concrete wall and only thought I was pushing him aside. It was only the subsequent medical diagnosis kept me from being criminally charged.
To quote Bruce Banner “Don’t make me angry...you wouldn’t like me when I am angry.”
It is a real life demon that I fight everyday. If I miss a dose, within an hour it begins...
