I've been a 3+ pack a day smoker for 35+ years. Haven't had a smoke for 45 hours.

Tried to quit lots of times. But never worked until I was finally ready. I took all the cigarettes I had crushed them (think I might have done a dance on them) and threw them in the trash. Never smoked again, never looked back. I was done. My point is until you are sure and truly ready it won't work. Make the choice and you can be done with it. Keep up the good work and if you are saving some cigs just in case, get rid of them!