Anybody Else Write Music?

I still play live . Usually covers these days though. Its seems its still the same as the late eighties, grown adults show up to rehearsal don't know the tunes etc.
Last project I bailed on last April, we had a nice tight working three piece, and the
drummer wanted his brother in law to be in. 2nd Guitar player which we didn't need. Ok, guy shows up can't play the songs. Then they start wanting to take songs he can't play out of the set...I was like "no I'm out". more time hemming and hawwing than playing. I mean I can be a nice guy to an extent. I felt like I was a teenager again trying to get something going.
I’ll raise my hand. Guilty. A few weeks ago I was the guy who showed up at rehearsal, the day of service, and was not prepared. The worship pastor called me out, not by name, but I knew what it was. I felt horrible. Wound up getting through worship fine, I would seriously doubt anyone would know. But I knew and the rest of the team knew... and if I were to post the video, you would know too, because I’m in concentration, worried about it and it was all over my face, and not in worship. I decided to remove myself until an opportunity opens where I can dedicate myself to studying the songs.