50’s male looking for information

I get depressed every holiday .
Sure, i enjoy the time with the children. I don't want any gifts.
I have rooms and closets full of stuff I will never wear, or hardly look at.
Cars I don't have the desire to work on, I get that.
Friends I have a few that I entertain once a year. Always good to see them but,I
Agree always the same stories, I've been trying to get them to do somethings as a group to create new stories.
I'm almost always the organizer... Trying to get friends to do different stuff....