Sad to see but will happen to most us all

I have a death wish. Most recent, I tried to drink myself to death. Almost worked too but those who love me keep interfering. I did some deep thinking about this one after they told me I did almost die twice. I decided there must be something else I need to do before I go. Only God knows what that is.
As for the material things I leave behind, I have a few things designated to who. Feck the rest of it.