If you don't have the money, get a job and earn some cash so you don't embarrass yourself with a piss poor offer next time.
If you can't earn more money, face up to the reality that the hobby may not be for you.
Hey, I'll never be cast in a porno movie because I don't have what it takes, I'm okay with that. I made my peace with it years ago.
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