Friends that you had to let go.

The thing with addictions is that the addict has to WANT help, which usually means they have to hit rock bottom, and hit it hard. I met a beautiful young woman when I was 18, and she was 17. It wasn't long before I realized that she had some demons that were controlling her life. She got involved in drugs and alcohol, and I admit I enabled her behavior for the first several months because I didn't yet understand it. She struggled for a few years, eventually getting her life on track. She had been through more than a few failed attempts at sobriety, but finally had been clean and sober for a few years, been in university and established a good start in a career.
That was over a period of about 9 years, during which our relationship also went through many ups and downs, but I always felt that we had a future together. Unfortunately just as things were looking really positive, she was murdered. That sent me on a downward spiral where my best friend was in a bottle. Three years of not giving a **** before I got my **** together, but I still am left with the question that will never be answered, what might have been.
Can't hit the "like" button on that one, but....Damn! I'm sorry to read this, Randy (and my condolences). Sounds like you and I have a (somewhat) similar tale to tell regarding past loves (mine involves rape, not murder), but I'd rather not dwell on it here.

Love your wife, my friend. Tell her how much she means to you. Daily.