Thanks EVERYONE! I am now back home, (not easy to make the return trip) But, with my daughter I had to to get back to to a somewhat "normal" routine, you know?
I thought I'd be strong, but.....
See, my step-Mom, and I swore to each other the day before and the morning of the viewing, that we weren't going to break..................I killed it, (I got to say, I don't care who you are, or how strong you think you might be), you can say what you wantto anyone, but the sight of seeing that person, you know? Kills me, I loved my Dad, and still do, still kicking my *** to think I won't be able to see, talk or anything to him, to hear him in return.....His dreams, everything, that he'll not see, (Yeah its nice, he had dreams, but didn't see them completed, or all the way through....) He wanted to get his 39 Chevy on the road, and it was REAL close done! He just got the damned tittle and **** for **** sakes....
SO, with that, I'm going to see what he didn't get to as he wanted it done....... I'm going to walk in his footsteps for the sake of him and the carrying on, you know?
We're (my Step Mom and I) going to keep the 39, and do what he wanted...She hates it, BUT, won't sell it in Honor of Dad.. I told her, I'll see it done for shows and such as its a long drive for me, but I have a VERY trust worthy friend of the family that will see this through in honors of as well.........
What does this mean? WELL, my 67 rebuild will wait,,,,,,,,, its a turn-key truck, it is road legal everyday driver............ the 39 isn't. and I'm going to take the funds of the truck and put it towards the 39.......
In time, I'm going to be getting another Mopar so. my Dads 84 Power Ram...... My step mom is keeping it for now, but she has to think about it and I understand her and we both agree, but..... She told me it will be mine when she can wrap her head around all this, she and I just has a lot to clean up otherwise, outside of this first.....
But EVERYONE, THANK YOU from me and my family for the well wishes and condolences, its very much appreciated. I currently have my Moms, mother left at 84 yrs old, and my Step-Mom....A few uncles and Aunts, I've lost both Grandparents on my Dads side of the family, and my Grandfather on my Moms side.....I did this 3 years ago with my Mom....So, sadly I'm not all alone as far as "parents" are concerned, Mom, I didn't take as hard, but was difficult.. Dad, This has got to be the most difficult time, I've every survived....(Yes, we were close) Like my Grandmother that I lost back in 93......(My Dads mother)
I've been told, it gets easier, but DAMN.......
Thanks everybody!