dustermaniac
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Supposed to speak to a company next week about installing and maintaining misting systems for produce in supermarkets. Hopeful that something good can come from that.
Supposed to speak to a company next week about installing and maintaining misting systems for produce in supermarkets. Hopeful that something good can come from that.
A friend of mine,made decent money,doing that kind of work....Best Wishes,& best of luck,Thomas....
Keep trying to get through to your daughter.
We need family to keep us from spinning out.
I hired an attorney this week to try to ensure precedence in my very limited time windows to see my children and not let every single little thing derail my plans to see them.
Maybe come spring I will have the previous useless attorneys paid off, and can think about switching to a job that permits occasional days off.
In the meantime, I am ready to die.
I have had a good life, and I am comfortable with having tried as hard as I could, but welcome death as a way to get some rest.
There don't seem to be "days", or time.
It's all one day, and it just goes on and on.
How would I know what makes one day different from another?
I cannot believe the Cubs won the world series, or that another bad thing is not going to happen tomorrow.
How can I learn to remember who I was, what I liked to do, or how to smile?
Feels like if I am enjoying myself, I must be slacking off somehow, because I feel guilty if I'm not working 7 days or 12 hour days.
So much debt to pay to satisfy the past choices if my family and ex wife.....
Just not able to remember what life was like before my wife decided to punish me for not providing her with all the things she felt entitled to.
Steve,nice post... Being I am single, no kids: I was clueless,on how to respond....DT. Im no therapist...never been married but have 2 kids that are men now. I have always been a huge part of their life. I had to fight for that. Not them but their useless mother. When I left her and took my oldest boy he was 6 months old and she was pregnant with my youngest (I didn't know at the time).
I was working in a bar...shitty pay blah blah blah. I fought for my boy and eventually both of them. It aint easy, countless court appearances.
You should document everything you can. Whatever you hope to achieve is not going to happen overnight. Formulate a plan and stick with it.
A member on here a while back said to "make sure you love your kids more than you hate your ex" I couldn't agree more.
I feel for you wanting and needing to be with your kids. Stay in touch with them as best you can (text Bookface Skype).
I know its tough but it can be overcome.
Im sure your kids want to be fought for.
All the best
Steve,nice post... Being I am single, no kids: I was clueless,on how to respond....
man oh man - there really are some people out there that just suck! hey, you took a shot and it didn't work out - what it does show is that you still got it mister ...and be sure, there IS a woman out there that will appreciate you and be good for you. Life really has a way of dealing out lemons and making lemonade just ain't happening right now... I always figure it'll just be that much sweeter when you DO get around to it, you know what I mean?! Gina will come around - it's a battle worth fighting - 'nuff said. It may not be totally obvious to you right now, but you're doing better than you think you are...I have been an absolute mess since Dee died. As for Gina, she is angry at the fact that Mom is gone also and is dealing with her own form of depression. I have on several occasions tried talking with Gina about seeking counseling without success. I made the stupid mistake after Dee died of meeting a woman who basically came on very strong to me when I was at my weakest and vulnerable. And I fell really hard and fast for this woman who was so caring in the beginning and let down my guard and ended up moving in with her. Fast forward three months later and I have found out that she is not the caring person who I thought she was but instead a very evil bi polar witch who is very self centered and hurtful. But now she has put me out in my truck in the cold and I am just a mess inside. I know I'm better off without her in my life but I am not good with being alone. Gina I feel is angry that I left and moved in with this woman so soon after Dee died, but she was looking for a place with her boyfriend and was filling out application after application for rentals and leaving application fees and losing money. So since my lease ran out in August and I figured why not just let her take over the house and contents minus what I took. So now I am still dealing with the very strong grief of losing Dee and also a broken heart on top of that. I was working for Choice Home Warranty and got screwed out of over $2500 in completed calls and do not think I will ever see a penny from them. And all this combined has just left me feeling very hopeless and alone. Gina will not talk to me, (I've tried)And to be honest with the holidays just around the corner the desperation and loneliness and hurt have just consumed me. I am trying to pull myself out of this but I cannot seem to do it or just do not know how to. And loneliness is really hard. I feel very alone. That's why I just want to be with Dee. The feelings of overwhelming despair are constantly there.I am in a very deep, deep depression right now. As for the truck it is a 2001 Ford F150. I cannot get any heat out of the heater. Thought the blend door was stuck, ended up cutting into the heater /AC box with a dremel behind the glove box. Blend door is working, but heater core is ice cold despite both heater hoses hot to touch. No coolant loss, New radiator, water pump, thermostat, Clutch fan, upper and lower radiator hoses, serpentine belt, tensioner, and lower manifold.
honestyThanks for the support.
I'm not capable of hate.
Fortunately my ex and I never fought.
But it does seem she has taken every step possible to destroy my world and life, and it's very hard to have faith in anything when so much crumbles so easily.
I am scared to ask for Sat and Sunday off,
because there is no end of work and problems are endless.
How do I tell my boss I am at wit's end when he needs me 6-7 days?
honesty
So now I am still dealing with the very strong grief of losing Dee and also a broken heart on top of that. I was working for Choice Home Warranty and got screwed out of over $2500 in completed calls and do not think I will ever see a penny from them. And all this combined has just left me feeling very hopeless and alone. Gina will not talk to me, (I've tried)And to be honest with the holidays just around the corner the desperation and loneliness and hurt have just consumed me. I am trying to pull myself out of this but I cannot seem to do it or just do not know how to. And loneliness is really hard. I feel very alone. That's why I just want to be with Dee. The feelings of overwhelming despair are constantly there.I am in a very deep, deep depression right now.
Supposed to speak to a company next week about installing and maintaining misting systems for produce in supermarkets. Hopeful that something good can come from that.
Been there.Just not experiencing any joy out of life in general