Hey Dan, I see your position and frustration.
However, life is about compromises...
Be it work, marriage, family, kids, cars, or whatever.
You can't have perfection in life no matter how you would like it to be that way.
Yes, you have been ridiculed by several members on this site including me because you brought it upon yourself.
It's long past time that you pulled the trigger and bought a car, be it good, bad, or ugly.
Buy the one that's close to what you want and then personalize it to your tastes like most of the rest of us do.
We all want the best bang for the buck, but some times compromise is a good thing.
If you are worried about what everyone thinks of you, get it in your mind that it's your money, your time, and your car... regardless of what others may think.
And you're too worried about making a mistake (in your mind) than actually biting the bullet and buying a car that you could enjoy in the long run.
If you are a dreamer, then there's nothing wrong with that.
But, you have to sometimes put up or shut up or man up.
And that's life.
Good luck on your future quests...